My hormones can be my worst enemy!!

Well this week has been hell!  Ate all the wrong things.  Craving cheese and sugar.   And of course I gave in and lost control! 

Hormones are not on my side when it comes to losing weight.  This time of the month (PMS week) is the week when I can get depressed, anxious about all my loved ones, want to change alot of things in my life, get motivated mentally to attack my cluttered house but then freeze up when I don't where to start, never do anything, then feel guilty and this all leads to binge eating and I lose my control over my eating and coping skills.  

With eating all these foods that my body doesn't need...it now feels poisoned and low in energy and in pain from the wrong food!  The unconscious mind and body won this one.  Will have to approach future months' hurdles with a new attitude and see if I can win some of these battles.

Being a woman is pain in the butt at times. 

Refocusing is working!!

Happy to say that refocusing has caused this girl to lose more this week and my clothes are getting looser.  Very happy!   I am so close to getting out of the 80's on the scales...just a few kgs to go...it is spurring me on!

As you know I have had my feet looked at and they have found nothing yet to explain the pain so I decided that when my boys were at footy training I would walk around the oval while they trained.  It's on grass so nice and soft for walking on and not causing too much shock into my feet.  Only got 4 laps in the other night before my body said stop...but not bad for someone that hasn't exercised for a long time.  So each week I will go for more laps and build up my fitness a bit and hopefully not cause any more damage to my feet.

So all is good on the weight loss and getting healthy journey!

Refocused...

After having a bad couple of weeks with food and very small amounts of weight loss I am refocusing my efforts to get a better result this week. 

I am noticing though that bits of me are getting smaller.  My clothes are getting looser.  So things are happening not just fast enough.  I can lose more each week I just have to be more discplined. 

Unfortunately food did control me again the other night and I ate all the wrong things...bacon cabonara pasta, choc chip biscuits and a hot cross bun.  Did my body thank me the next day?  No it did not!

So I am back in control!!  The only major area I need to improve on is my water intake.  Need to drink a lot more!!  This will help with the weight loss.

Feeling somewhat blah...

I don't why but just feeling blah today.  Don't know if it is due to waiting to find out if I have a stress fracture in my left foot or starting to feel it a bit with eating not so good food this week ie the indian and italian...not sure.

Went out for dinner tonight and didn't make good decisions.  My body will be rejecting me tomorrow.  Caesar Salad and garlic bread...oh and 2 glasses of postmix orange juice to go with it.   For future reference...one should not go out for dinner when feeling like I do today...chose the wrong food and now feel even worse after eating it!!  Don't feel guilty just feel sick...

Lucky there is no icecream in the house or I may have sat down to the container and ate. Big glasses of water instead to try and wash some of this awful food out of my body...

Tomorrow is a new day...no more eating out for the next few weeks I think.   Until I get my body healthy again.  I haven't felt like this since before I started TF...so no more of the unhealthy food...my body doesn't want it!

Happily cruising along...

Things are going along nicely.   I am really enjoying this diet / change in lifestyle.  That is saying something!  I am very much in control of my eating not the other way round for a change.  I can choose to listen to my food cravings in the middle of the afternoon give in or go and find something physical to do instead.  I haven't been in control of my eating in a very long time! 

I now allow myself to have normal food when I go out.   I had Italian (pasta and garlic pizza) on Wed night and then ended up having Indian on Sat night.  In the past as soon as I have tasted this food I want more of it and tend to slip out off my diet and be back at square one.  But, yay for me, I am in control!  So when home again I am back to my strict regime and all is good!  I feel better eating the food that is on my diet than eating the other.  It tasted lovely and I enjoyed my meal without feeling guilty.  My body may reject me a bit the next day or so due to it not being used to eating pasta and cream sauces.  But I am not badgering myself over what I ate.  The next food I have is the healthy option and my body thanks me.

A little update... after 3 weeks I have lost a total of 4kgs and lost 4cm around my waist.  I may put a little on in the next few days due to the Italian and Indian food.  But it will come off again. 

So happily cruising along...

It is getting easier in some areas...

The diet is getting easier as time goes on...I can even drink the shakes in the morning with no problem.

I have had little tastes of the food I would normally have had in the past and my taste has changed...

For example:
1) noodles from chinese takeaway...one small mouth full...no more thanks!
2) ate some tasty cheese (one of my major weaknesses)...tasted fine...after taste not good.   Hmmm.....
3) diet cola drinks...skip those...

BUT...unfortunately...well maybe not...TimTams and turkish delight chocolate still taste just wonderful...LOL
So these will have to be kept for special treats.

Update on my feet...I have no fractures which is excellent...went to podiatrist starting some treatment to get my feet working how they should be.  Off to buy new support sneakers tomorrow...so I can start walking for fitness.

Weigh-in on my scales end of week 2...I have lost a total of 3kgs...very happy with myself and starting to see and feel the difference already.  I can even bend over comfortably to do up my sneakers...impressive!

Not a good day...

Feeling pretty off today...

I gave in last night and had the rest of the boys homemade pizza and then also proceeded to make myself a steak with some vege.  Do I feel better for it...not the slightest!  I feel bloated, low in energy and generally yuck! 

I haven't even had breakfast this morning...well because I don't feel like it...

It is this time of the month when I can get depressed and the emotional eating happens.  This is a quite a big hurdle but not impossible to conquer...

I need to get back onto my multivitamins...think I have missed taking them the last few days...doesn't help...

I have been to the chemist to get my next lot of shakes.  So it is time to regroup and refocus! 

Come on girl!   YOU CAN DO IT!!